Cybernetic Organism

August 18th, 2010

The next 30 days are going to be pretty irritating.

Yesterday I picked up my “30-day event monitor” from the hospital. The device itself is like an old school, clunky pager that I wear clipped to my waistband. There are two wires connecting the pager-part to electrodes that I attach to my body with strong sticky things (made by 3M, funnily enough).

The monitor is patient-activated, so any time I feel dizzy I have to push a button and stand still for 30 seconds or so while it records whatever my heart is doing. When it’s not recording, it’s not doing anything – except being a nuisance. Every 2-3 “events”, I have to call the hospital and “download” them through the phone, not unlike a fax machine. Oddly, it takes about a minute to download a 30-second event.

I’m supposed to wear it all the time, except when I’m showering. I think I’m going to refuse to wear it to bed (I didn’t wear it last night):  I’ve never gotten dizzy in bed, so I don’t see why I should make myself uncomfortable for nothing.

I wore it yesterday when I worked out and at kung fu, and it wasn’t too much of a hassle, except that all my sweat made one of the sticky things de-stick, which was obnoxious. Now I know I have to carry extras with me!

This thing is going to take some getting used to, in general. If I don’t hit the button immediately upon feeling dizzy, it’ll miss the entire “event” and won’t be of much help. Also, going to the bathroom is a pain in the butt since it’s clipped to my waistband, and now that I’m drinking water like mad, I’m using the bathroom more than I’d like to admit.

Thirty days of this. I hope they figure out what’s wrong with me after all this trouble! I joked yesterday about being a robot… now I’m a cyborg.

Doctor’s Orders

August 17th, 2010

“All the dreamers in all the world are dizzy in the noodle.” – Edie Adams

Yesterday I had an appointment with my doctor about the whole passing out/concussion thing. He’s not positive what the cause is yet, but he thinks it’s heart-related. I think I mentioned my very low pulse rate (under 50 BPM at rest!), plus I have low blood pressure. He thinks those things combined with the heat and humidity and my dehydration (I was still dehydrated yesterday!) is what caused me to faint.

I have to:

1 – Drink more water. Even more than usual, which seems to be more than most people as it is…

2 – Eat more salt. What? Seriously? Okay…

3 – Wear a special heart rate monitor for a month. I’m going to the hospital to pick it up this afternoon so I don’t know exactly how it works yet, but apparently there will be a button on it somewhere that I have to push any time I feel dizzy. It will send information about me and my heart rate back to some enormous contraption where it will be used to make a clone of me for when I eventually kick it. Or something like that.

After the 30 days, I’ll be referred to a cardiologist or an electrophysiologist, depending on the results. Hopefully they’ll be able to determine what the cause is and tell me how to prevent it!

I’m allowed to work out and do all of my normal activities, so starting today I’m back to P90X. I missed 4 days, but one of them would have been a rest day anyway, and I’ll skip this week’s rest day, so that’s not so bad overall. I’m going to try not to feel bad about it. Clearly missing those workouts was not my choice.

So this afternoon, I head to yet another hospital to acquire my heart rate monitor. What if they find out I’m a robot?

Poor Me

August 14th, 2010

I’m so frustrated right now. This past Thursday, I started Week 7 of P90X without having missed a single workout. Some days were more difficult than others: There were days that I really didn’t feel up for working out, and others when I had so much other stuff going on that it was tough to fit in. But I planned ahead of time and did what had to be done so that I didn’t miss a single workout.

Until yesterday. And now today. And likely tomorrow. And possibly Monday…

On Thursday, Friend #1 and her friend (and my new friend!) came down to Pittsburgh for the Jimmy Buffett concert. Before the concert, we tailgated in the parking lot… My first time! It was pretty fun :)

I volunteered to be the designated driver, so I really didn’t have much to drink – a few Mikes Hard Lemonades over the course of 6 hours. Needless to say, I was not drunk.

We went into the concert at 8. After about an hour, I started to feel sick: dizzy, lightheaded, cold sweats, headache. I told my friends that I had to go to the bathroom, thinking if I could get out of the crowd and splash some water on my face I’d feel better.

I walked out of the concert area toward the bathrooms, but started to get SO dizzy that I had to lean up against something. I clearly remember seeing a garbage can and walking towards it. I put my hand on it and then…

I woke up in the medical center.

I have no idea how I got to the there or how long I was out. Based on the timeline, there’s rougly 25-30 minutes that I don’t remember.

I threw up a few times in the medical center, discovered big abrasions on my head, shoulder and arm, was issued a citation for public drunkenness – even though I wasn’t drunk! – and met back up with my friends. The concert was over. I can’t believe I missed the entire second half…

I was sick all night and all morning. My friends convinced me to let them take me to the ER where I explained the night’s events to the doctor. After an EKG and a CT scan, the explanation is this: In general, I have very low blood pressure – between 47 & 49 beats per minute. Couple that with the extreme heat, the likely dehydration I was suffering from, and the thinned blood from the few drinks I did have, and that was enough to cause me to pass out (not the first time I’ve passed out, either). When I passed out, I hit my head, which caused a concussion, and that caused the vomiting.

Crazy. That ruins the rest of my fun weekend plans with Friend #1, and has left me with a severe headache.

I can’t work out for a few days either :/

Next week I have to follow up with my GP about the low blood pressure thing. I’m also going to try to fight the ticket I got for being drunk when I wasn’t.

For now, though, I’m supposed to just take it easy. I can work out when I feel up for it, which I don’t right now. When I can turn my head without feeling severe pain, I think I’ll be ready to resume P90X. The doctor said the best plan was to spend the weekend on the couch watching movies.

Good thing I have Netflix: Doctor’s orders!

Phase Two

August 2nd, 2010

I can’t believe how quickly time has been flying! It seems like I just woke up, and yet it’s the middle of the afternoon. I have to (try to) get some work done, do my workout, and pack up the bikes in time to meet my husband for our new regular biking date on Monday evenings (so fun!). Then it’s home to shower, make and eat dinner and then – hopefully – relax for an hour or so before heading to bed to do some combination of the same tomorrow.

This is a pretty typical day lately. I’m certainly not complaining – I like having things to do, especially when those things are active and fun! Every day, I’m scrambling to fit in a full work day, an hour long (or more) workout, and then whatever the evening’s activity is (Monday: Biking, Tuesday: Kung Fu, Wednesday: Softball, Thursday: Kung Fu, Friday: Run with N-Cat). It’s no wonder I haven’t been blogging much lately!

This past Thursday marked the start of Phase Two for me in the P90X program. For those of you who aren’t familiar, P90X consists of three “phases”, each 4 weeks long. The first 3 weeks of each phase are pretty intense, each day doing a different type of workout (or working different muscle groups), and the fourth week is for ‘recovery’, which still has you working out every day, but it’s the lower intensity workouts mostly.

When I attempted this program 2 years ago, I didn’t make it to Phase 2: I quit during the recover week. I guess I never quite felt ‘recovered!’ Anyway, that makes this particularly exciting! New territory! In fact, on Saturday I did a workout I had never done before (Chest, Shoulders & Triceps) and it felt great! I’m sore again, and in brand new ways and places.

I’m noticing some results, too! In July, I lost a total of 4.5 pounds – better than a pound a week! – leaving only 8.5 to go in order to reach my Third Quarter Melt Down goal by October 5 (my birthday!). I’m highly optimistic at this point :)

Also, I can tell that my balance and flexibility are improving. Not just because I’m getting better and better at the Yoga workout, but I can feel it at Kung Fu, too – very cool. It also seems like I’m building some serious arm muscles, but unfortunately, they’re still buried under some fat, so I have more work to do!

I’m pleased with where I am and how I’m progressing. I’ve been faithful to the program and haven’t missed a single workout, and I think it’s paying off.

And if I feel this good after just 4 weeks, I’m really looking forward to seeing where I end up in another 8 weeks!

How about the rest of you? We’re a third of the way into the Third Quarter Melt Down… are you pleased with your progress? Do you need to reassess your goals – or maybe reassess your efforts to reach your goals? Hit me up with how things are going!

Making Progress

July 25th, 2010

I’ve been asked a number of times in the last few days how things have been going with P90X… and my Third Quarter Melt Down in general. That’s a pretty good indication that I need to work on my blogging frequency. Sorry about that – I’ll try to be better!

Even though I haven’t been very good about blogging, I’m pleased to report that I’ve been sticking to the P90X program without fail. In fact, I’ve completed the first three and a half weeks without missing a single workout! Some days, it was particularly difficult to ‘push play’ as they say, but I’m committed, and I’m doing this. So there.

I’ve been feeling pretty good, too! I can tell that I’m improving, which is great. I haven’t really lost much weight – only about 3 pounds since July 1 – but I know it will come. I can feel my body getting stronger and my balance and flexibility are improving. Noticing all these differences drives me to keep going and try harder and harder so that I can continue to make these positive changes.

It feels good… It feels really good.

How about the rest of you out there? It’s been a while since you’ve committed to kicking it up a notch; have you been working on reaching your goals? If you’re not proud of what you’ve been doing over the last three weeks, recommit: You can’t go backwards, but you can start again today. Right now. Do it with me!

Third Quarter Melt Down

July 8th, 2010

I love that a number of you are with me on the Third Quarter Melt Down! It’s so important to have goals – long term and short term – so I think this will be good for everyone. I’d love to hear about your progress as the weeks go on, so please feel free to keep me updated in the comments, on Facebook, via Twitter (@_kimbolina), or send me an email if you prefer (kimberly@watermelonwaistline.com).

It’s now one week into the Third Quarter, which also means I’m one week into P90X. When I started, my weight was 177. This morning, I was 174.5. A 2.5 pound loss this week? I’ll take it!

While I’m sure that has a lot to do with the hour-long intense workouts I’ve been doing each day, I know the other part of that is my diet, which I’m thrilled to announce has been hugely improved over the last few days. I’m once again logging my food (thank you, My Food Diary), which really keeps me accountable for what I put in my mouth. I’ve found that much of what I’ve been eating has been fine, but definitely not everything. Also, many of my portion sizes have been out of whack in the last few months: I’ve reverted to eating as much as my 6’2″ husband. Not cool.

The Third Quarter Melt Down starts off with a bang! If this rate of loss keeps up (I don’t expect it to, but it would be a nice surprise!), I may have to up my goal! Right now, I’ll just enjoy the fact that I only have 10.5 more pounds to go.

How are the rest of you doing? Anyone else want in on this? I’m not staging a contest with rules or anything: The Third Quarter Melt Down is just a personal challenge to use the next 3 months to step up your weight-loss and/or training efforts. Set a goal for yourself and then take the necessary steps to reach them. For me, it’s lose 13 pounds by my birthday (October 5) and I’ll be focusing on my diet much more closely and continuing with P90X.

Let’s do this!

New Goal

July 6th, 2010

I’m five days into P90X. So far, so good! I was oh-so-very-sore after Day 1, which was astounding. It was a good workout, but I didn’t expect to feel it quite so much in the days that followed. By Day 3, when I had to do a 15-minute ab workout, it hurt just to get on the floor.

I stuck with it though, and even though it’s only been a few more days, I think my body is getting used to the more rigorous routine. My muscles are still achy, but it’s far more manageable. In fact, it’s kind of nice, actually – reminds me that I’m doing something. Pushing myself. I like it.

Here’s the thing though: I know it’s only been 5 days, and I typically recommend to folks (and myself) not to weigh yourself every day, but each day this week I’ve weighed exactly the same thing. I feel like it should have changed, at least a tiny bit, after doing an intense workout for roughly 60 minutes each day… on top of Kung Fu.

But no. Of course that’s not going to happen… Not with the way I’ve been eating.

I’m ashamed to admit that I haven’t put much thought into how I’ve been eating over the last few months. I haven’t thrown everything out the window or anything – even my ‘reckless’ eating is far better than it was a few years ago – but I haven’t been eating in such a way that will cause me to lose weight.

In fact, you may have noticed that I haven’t posted my weight here in quite some time. That’s because I haven’t actively been working to lower it, and therefore, it has instead risen.

My current weight is 177.

*sigh*

At my lowest, I got down to 169 at the end of March. I guess I’ve slowly but surely tacked on 8 pounds. How ridiculous is that?! Clearly I don’t quite have the intuitive eating/maintenance thing down yet, and still need to pay some attention to what I’m putting in my mouth.

I know that doing P90X in addition to Kung Fu and occasional running will be a huge help. But I also need to focus more on what – and how much – I’m eating.

I need a goal. I’m very goal-oriented. And it’s been a long time since I’ve set a goal that had to do with the scale. (In some ways, I think that’s healthy, but clearly I’m not quite there yet as I’ve gained 8 pounds in 3 months…)

So: I started P90X on July 1. That will take me to the end of September, and my birthday is just a few days later on October 5. That got me to thinking that my birthday would be a great target date for this short-term goal.

After crunching the numbers and thinking realistically about what I can do if I really try, I’ve decided to set my goal for October 5 at 164 pounds. That’s 13 pounds in 3 months – more than doable. It seems so doable that I’m almost afraid I’m not challenging myself enough, but I don’t want to set myself up for failure, either.

Besides that, 164 is a significant number for me. When I was young – 14 maybe? – I remember going on a diet with this as my start weight. At 14, 164 is a lot. At 29, it’s a lot more reasonable!

Incidentally, who goes on a diet and then puts on nearly 100 pounds?! Crazy.

So wish me luck, people! I’m going to really put in the effort again. I know what works: Counting calories and exercising. I’ve got the exercise on track, so now it’s time to focus on the food and I know I can do it.

Anyone want to put it into high gear with me for the next 3 months? We can call it the Third Quarter Melt Down… or something :)

Stepping it Up

June 30th, 2010

A while back – about 75 pounds into my weight-loss journey – I attempted Tony Horton’s P90X program. Sadly, I only lasted about 3 weeks of the 12.

If you’re not familiar, P90X is a 90-day system comprised of 12 different workouts that you alternate to keep your muscles “confused” so you don’t plateau or get bored.

It’s incredibly challenging. And time-consuming. And tiring.

And I’m ready to try it again.

When I tried it before, my husband did it with me. Committing to doing something with someone else can be a good thing, but it can also be a bad thing. When the time commitment became too much for my husband with his work schedule, I just let it go too. (Even though since I have my own business and work from home, I have more time than most…) I didn’t stop because I felt bad that he couldn’t do it with me – he’s always incredibly supportive. I stopped because I wasn’t invested enough to do it on my own.

I’m further along in my journey now. I’m in better shape than I was then, and I’m mentally stronger, too. I’ve always secretly wanted to try this again (I hate feeling like a quitter!), but I’ve never taken the leap. After reading about how Rachel of (Body by Pizza fame) is about to give it a go and “get buff”, I was inspired to finally try it again.

Honestly, I’m still a little afraid that I’ll fail again. If this is going to beat me, though, it’s not going to be from lack of trying.

And so, starting tomorrow, July 1, I will restart P90X. I think the structure and the intensity and the challenge will be good for me. We all know how good I am at following schedules! And how good I am at doing nothing when I don’t have a schedule…

I’m actually a little excited :) Wish me luck!

Race Recap: Dormont Dash

June 27th, 2010

Yesterday was the Dormont Dash 5k. My goal for this race was to break 30 minutes and set a new PR.

I woke up in the morning feeling great: I had my usual pre-race breakfast (whole wheat english muffin with peanut butter and jelly), put on my clothes which I had lain out the previous night, and headed to the race place not far away.

It was a gorgeous morning, not nearly as hot and humid as it had been recently. The fact that it was 8am didn’t hurt, either. At this point , I was cautiously optimistic about achieving my goal. I haven’t really done much speed work (or any, for that matter), but my pace has steadily quickened over time, and it’s definitely within the realm of possibility that I could do this – I’ve gotten SO CLOSE!

Shortly after I arrived, I met up with N-Cat who was running the race as well. This was her first road race in many years, so she was adorably nervous and excited. I’ve done quite a few 5ks to date so I don’t get that same sort of charge at the starting line anymore; it was neat to live vicariously through her. (That’s not to say that I don’t enjoy doing 5ks, because I do, it’s just different now. If you run races, too, I imagine you know what I mean.)

N-Cat and I didn’t plan to run together since we had different goals: Like I said, my goal was to break 30 minutes, and N-Cat’s goal was simply to finish… ideally not last. I was confident that she would have no problem finishing and not last – even if she wasn’t. (Incidentally, she did awesome, finishing in under 40 minutes, with plenty of people behind her!)

J-Roc ran this race, too, but he arrived late so I didn’t see him until he crossed the finish line. Note to J-Roc: It’s important to arrive on time to road races!  :D

This course was described as having “rolling hills.” That’s a complete understatement. This course was like an M.C. Escher painting as it was almost entirely uphill, and yet the start and finish lines were the at the same elevation. Funny that…

I’m used to running on hills, but this course was absolutely insane. It started out uphill. Then you turn the corner and it was up another hill. Then another and another. Crazy.

Of course, there were some downhills, but I swear, they were few and far between. I did my best to sprint on the downhills because the uphills were so tough and I wanted to try to compensate for that.

About a mile in, I adjusted my goal from “break 30 minutes” to “don’t die.”

I’m pleased to say that I didn’t die, but I also didn’t break 30 minutes. My time was 31:07.3. Not bad considering the course, which was definitely not a course on which to set a PR.

Which means I have the same goal to strive for. It kills me every time I cross the finish line of a 5k and see a ’3′ in front of my time. I guess that means it’ll be that much more awesome when I finally get there, right?

Chasing Waterfalls

June 20th, 2010

I spent a few days this week visiting my family and Friend #1 in Buffalo. I had a great time – it was jam-packed with activity, which was the idea, but man was it exhausting!

One afternoon, my brother Stephen and I went hiking at a place not too far away called Zoar Valley. He has been trying to get me to go there for years. It’s not that I didn’t want to go, because I definitely did. It’s just that my trips to Buffalo are always so short, usually centered around some sort of event, so time is incredibly limited and we were never able to coordinate it. This was the perfect trip for it, though.

Zoar Valley is literally a valley with high cliffs (and in many places, waterfalls) on either side. In the center is a creek, which can become more river-like with rain. There had been some rain in the days before our hike, so – according to my brother – there was more water than usual, but it wasn’t at the ‘too dangerous to continue’ level. So it was full-steam ahead!

Truthfully, I had no idea what to expect. Steve told me to wear sneakers that I didn’t mind getting wet, because that was definitely going to happen. But he didn’t tell me that the rest of me was going to be completely saturated as well. If I had known that, I would have worn a bathing suit under my clothes, but hey: You’ve gotta roll with the punches when you’re with Steve, so whatever.

There were a few very difficult places to pass. At one point, in water up to our necks, we had to get around an outcropping of the cliff. Steve had no difficulty with this whatsoever. When it was my turn, though, it was a completely different story. The first time I attempted it, I thought I’d be able to walk, but the water was deeper than I expected. Then I tried a second time, doing this weird doggy paddle thing, which wasn’t enough to counteract the current of the water. And of course, I was laughing really hard (mostly at my foolishness and the fact that my brother was recording my foolishness…) which didn’t help. Third time was a charm though, and I made it across!

Zoar Valley is home to a number of waterfalls, and once I got past that outcropping of rock, there was a natural ‘shower’ that was fun to stand it. I was already wet, so what the heck, right?

There were a few more places that were pretty difficult to maneuver. Walking along a cliff with only a few inches of rock sticking out to step on – thinking back on it, it was pretty scary, actually. One wrong step and you’d be tumbling into the water below! We saved that for later though…

That’s right: I jumped off a cliff, down a waterfall, into the rushing water below.

Holy shit.

I had no idea that’s what we were doing until we were halfway to the waterfall at the end of the 2-mile hike. Steve nonchalantly tells me this like it was common knowledge. It was not.

After passing multiple waterfalls, we finally make it to the one we were going to jump off. When I saw it I immediately thought “No way in hell.” Steve quickly set down his bag away from the falls, and had me follow him over, which I did, like a lamb. He showed me how to cross the raging waters at the top, which again I did.

Let me tell you, once we were on top of the waterfall, I seriously doubted doing this. I don’t have a fear of heights or water, but standing up there and looking down – oh boy. Let’s just say it was high – about 25 or 30 feet I’d guess. And the water was fast. And it was a cliff, for pete’s sake.

Steve explained how to jump in – away from the edge (duh), plugging your nose with one hand and with your body straight like a pencil. He asked if I wanted him to go first, and obviously I did, so then he jumped in.

Just like that.

He was fine, of course. I yelled to him that I had no intention of jumping in twice, which he wanted me to do so he could take a picture of me as I jumped (he left his camera in that bag away from the falls), so he ran to get his camera. When he came back, I was standing at the top of the 25-30ft waterfall, shaking the nerves out of my hands, trying to talk myself into jumping.

And then I did.

I jumped out from the wall, plugged my nose, made myself as straight as possible and kissed my hat goodbye. There was an unexpected hang time before my feet hit the water – very odd sensation. It was actually a rather smooth entrance… I’d give it a 7.5. My hat even ended up directly beneath me so I was able to snag that. Score!

These are our victory shots in front of the waterfall. There was a huge rock in the water in front of it that I’m standing on in the second one and Steve’s sitting on it in the third, so it’s a little misleading. We should have gotten a shot of one of us standing on top of it, but it was complicated since it was a phone and not a waterproof camera :) There’s a video of me jumping off somewhere too. If I ever get my hands on it I’ll share it with you all.

I’m so glad I went for it! It was really cool. I can’t believe I almost missed out on that experience for no good reason. Well, slight risk of death or dismemberment, but other than that, no good reason.