I’m not entirely sure what’s come over me. Ever since I finished the half marathon – over a month ago – I’ve been lackadaisical about my training. I can count on one hand how many times I’ve run in the last month, whereas before I was running 4+ times a week.
I knew it would be different when I was done training for the half, and that was a good thing – that training was super intense, and I was starting to feel burnt out – but I thought once it was over I would run when I wanted to run and enjoy it.
As it turns out, I rarely want to run.
I want to run, but I don’t want to run, if you can catch my meaning without the benefit of intonation.
Take today for instance: I was up MUCH earlier than usual. Hours earlier, in fact. It’s a beautiful morning, and I had nothing pressing to do. It looked so nice outside and I kept saying to myself “Now would be the perfect time to go for a run: I have the time, the weather is right for it, I have clean workout clothes… I should really go.” But I didn’t actually want to.
And so I didn’t.
What’s wrong with me? Every time I run I enjoy it (or at least enjoy the feeling of accomplishment when I return home). I never regret going, but I often regret not. So why can’t I push myself to just get out there and do it?
My malaise is very frustrating. I feel like I know better. Know better than to sit around feeling bad about not doing something when nothing is preventing me from doing that thing.
But still, I don’t go.
The thing I know will help is scheduling runs with other people, so that’s what I’m working on now. One of my husband’s coworkers is relatively new to running and has invited me to join her, so I’m trying to coordinate that. Then there’s J-Roc, the original running partner, but we keep having scheduling issues. I’m also going to visit my family for a few days next week and Friend #1, also a runner, lives nearby so I’ll enlist her to run with me while I’m there. Maybe if I run a few times with others that will get me back in the swing of things…
If anyone has any other suggestions to get myself out of this listlessness, by all means, share.
