Whelmed

I have some interesting personality quirks.* One of them is that I rarely take the first (or even second) opportunity to do something. Instead, I usually procrastinate until the last minute – and then get really overwhelmed and almost panicky when things pile up and I really think about all the crap I need to do. It happens all the time, so why don’t I learn my lesson and just do things right away rather than putting them off? Who knows. That’s just how I am.

Anyway, one of the things that was on my growing mental list of things to do for weeks is cleaning my house. Every time I went into any new room, I thought about it… and groaned… and then didn’t clean it.

Foolishly, rather than taking it in pieces and doing a room each night after work, I was waiting for a weekend at home so that I could get it all done at once. And because I’ve been out of town every weekend since before Christmas**, it was put on the back burner.

When there are too many items on my self-inflicted to-do list, I have a hard time ‘allowing’ myself to do things I want to do for ME – like going to the gym or for a run – because I have x, y, and z to do. It’s an tragic cycle, and what I all too often end up doing is a whole lot of nothing. (Again, I’m calling this a lovable quirk…)

So this weekend, which was thankfully not spent traveling, was spent cleaning. Every item of clothing is clean. Every dish is washed. Floors are vacuumed and Christmas decorations have finally put away. There’s more that could be done, but it’s a world better, and I no longer feel overwhelmed by it.

For the time being, I’m simply whelmed.

And that leaves me free to run my little heart out. Which I did today. In the rain.

*If you happen to know me, this is not an invitation to share with the internets my many idiosyncrasies. Besides, you know they make you love me even more!

**Plus I really didn’t want to do it.

3 Responses to “Whelmed”

  1. alea Says:

    I've been lurking for a while and now it's time to come out of hiding and say Hi. So here I am… Hi! :)

    I can totally and utterly relate to everything you've written today. That's me! Ok, not the going for a run in the rain part (not there yet) but all the rest… I'm exactly the same. And I couldn't have said it better. Thank you for making me feel less weird and less alone in this. And thank you for calling it a loveable quirk… :)

    Have a great week!

  2. Kimberly Says:

    Thanks for coming out of hiding, Alea! Especially since it was to empathize with me, and ultimately make me feel more normal. I don't know why I act like this, but I'm working on it… or at least I plan to, at some point in the undetermined future. ;)

  3. jodiebettcher Says:

    I don't know if you will get this…I am late as usual…one of my lovable quirks. You come by that naturally. Your mom and dad are both procrastinators. It is so sad when a couple have the same prob…i mean quirk. He's also a pig and I told him he has to stop because we can't both be pigs….he never listens….sigh