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What a Difference Three Days Make

Monday I wrote a post that was full of successes and optimism.

Today’s post will be no such thing.

I’ve been so tired lately. I know I’ve mentioned that before, but what the heck? Why hasn’t that resolved itself by now? I get a good amount of sleep. I relax heftily on the weekends. Nine times out of ten, I have an easy-going work day (I’m my own boss and have a 5 second commute from the living room to my office).

For pete’s sake, it’s not even 7 and I could fall asleep where I sit.

Besides being tired, I’m having a hard time keeping up with things. I’ve only run once this week, and every time I think about it, I then think better of it (or worse of it, as it were) and don’t. Of course, the rain and cold certainly isn’t helping me get out there. In order to get up to 10 miles this week, I’ll have to run both tomorrow and Saturday. Yeesh.

I’m also a bit down on myself professionally. And it’s irrational. My business is better than ever. I have more clients than ever, and they all love me (really, they do!) and continue to come back and refer others to me. I’m also starting a new division to my company that I’m really excited about.

So why am I down?

Because I’m not the best.

I know: Irrational.

I find myself comparing my work to the work of other companies, most of which have the creative talents of lots of people – not just one – and who have been in business (and THE business) for much longer than me.

It’s the same thing I do with my fitness. I try so hard not to compare myself to others, but damn. It’s hard.

I know, I know. I should use this as motivation to do better. To strive to BE better.

And I will.

Eventually.

But for now? I’m being irrational.

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  • http://fitmindbodyspirit.blogspot.com/ Kat

    You have been doing great and I know you will get back on track. Sending you positive thoughts!

  • bodybypizza

    Hang in there! I know firsthand how you feel re: the comparison thing when it comes to your profession. As a designer, it's easy to admire the work of others, but hard to admire the work we produce. I often wonder if it's because we've built it from scratch. We can find all of the imperfections and instances where we could have 'improved it' or have taken it further. It's a really tough spot to be in, but I guess it's just part of the game. It comes and goes for me. I hope it does the same for you. I am sure you do really amazing work. Look at your blog. ;)

  • Jessica

    Don't think of it being irrational, think of it as a signal that you might need to de-stress. I get like this, too, especially now when I've had to give up or severely restrict some of the things I really love to do in my pursuit of another goal. Take a week or two where you make a point to not push yourself hard. Your energy levels eventually will re-tune themselves, and you'll be back on track in no time.

  • Kimberly

    Thanks so much, girls. Even though I didn't reply to your comments at the time, it really meant a lot to me to receive your feedback and positivity. More than you know.

  • Kimberly

    Thanks so much, girls. Even though I didn't reply to your comments at the time, it really meant a lot to me to receive your feedback and positivity. More than you know.