Choices

I’m sitting here at my desk, on a gorgeous Friday afternoon, trying to talk myself into going for a run… I haven’t run since last Thursday.

I just haven’t been feeling up for it. First I was in a funk. Then I was sick. I’m still not feeling great (saddled with a head cold) but I’m sure I’m healthy enough to go for a run.

I just haven’t been in the mood, I guess you could say. I was in the habit, and now I’m out of the habit. Just like that.

So here I am. Thinking about it. Trying to talk myself into it. There’s nothing stopping me: The weather is perfect, I have time, my sports bra is clean.

And yet, I’m really struggling.

That bugs me a whole lot, too. I’ve had far too many posts in a row about struggling – and those posts were few and far between.

It occurs to me that it’s all about choices: I can choose to sit inside on my butt. I can choose to not take advantage of the unseasonably warm weather. I can choose to ignore the goals I’ve set for myself.

Or I can choose to lace up my sneaks, throw my hair back, and go for a freaking run already!

It shouldn’t be this difficult. I wish it wasn’t this difficult. But there it is. To run, or not to run? To work towards my goals and feel good about myself, or not?

Huh. When I put it that way, it doesn’t seem like much of a choice at all.

Here I go.

10 Responses to “Choices”

  1. South Beach Steve Says:

    I wish I understood why things like this happen to us. It is so hard to convince ourselves to do something we know is good for us, but if we go ahead and do it, we usually don't regret it. I hope you had a great run.

  2. jodiebettcher Says:

    Well, I feel the same way. I have a day off (finally), it's beautiful outside, I have time….so I guess you have inspired me…I can clean my room when I get back (or not).thanks for the inspiration!

  3. Kat Says:

    I can relate to feeling more stuggle than usual in the last month or so. Here's to making some healthy and positive choices this week!

  4. Kimberly Says:

    I'm so glad, Jodie! Cleaning can always wait – our bodies need some upkeep first!

  5. Kimberly Says:

    Here, here, Kat! Let's do it :)

  6. Kimberly Says:

    You're absolutely right – I never regret doing good things for myself. It doesn't make sense that I would be so reluctant to do them sometimes.

    My run was great… I'm looking forward to a lot more of them!

  7. Kat Says:

    I can relate to feeling more stuggle than usual in the last month or so. Here's to making some healthy and positive choices this week!

  8. Kimberly Says:

    I'm so glad, Jodie! Cleaning can always wait – our bodies need some upkeep first!

  9. Kimberly Says:

    Here, here, Kat! Let's do it :)

  10. Kimberly Says:

    You're absolutely right – I never regret doing good things for myself. It doesn't make sense that I would be so reluctant to do them sometimes.

    My run was great… I'm looking forward to a lot more of them!