Archive for June, 2009

Girls are Stupid.

Tuesday, June 16th, 2009

I went to the Total Body Workout class at my gym again last night. I didn’t love it as much as I did the first time, for a few reasons:

While everyone was still pleasant (ie: not overtly rude), I felt very much like an outsider last night. It seems there is a large group of women who comes to this class each week, and one of them is sick. We’ll call her Loretta. Loretta has a staph infection, and someone brought in a Get Well Soon card for everyone to sign.

This is a lovely gesture. However, I’m not part of “everyone” – I don’t even know who Loretta is. For the 15 minutes or so leading up to class as people were waiting to go in, there was an excessive amount of socializing: Whispered stories about poor Loretta’s infected staph, laughter and giggling at the supposedly clever card, etc. I felt very out of place – like a sliced hot dog in macaroni and cheese. Oh wait, that’s delicious. Well, let’s just say I felt very out of place.

Also, I felt far more uncoordinated last night than I did before. In the first class, I kept up with almost everything in the aerobics portion, and just fumbled a few moves. Last night, though, I was a mess. It was rather embarrassing – it’s a good thing no one has a clue who I am.

Otherwise, though, I still really enjoyed the class. This time, there was some work with a step, which was neat. I like that the instructor changes it up – it makes me excited to see what she’s going to do next week! And hey – it’s not like I’m there to make friends; I’m there for a total body workout! And I got that.

Even with the great workout, it’s uncomfortable sometimes. It’s always difficult to break into a close-knit group. I was thinking that next week I should walk right into the group and act like I belong. Just ask how Loretta’s staph infection is. With my luck though, I’ll ask Loretta and it’ll be hot dogs in mac & cheese again… or something NOT good. You know what I mean.

Here We Go Again!

Sunday, June 14th, 2009

Well, I’m back on the wagon and my wagon is on the right track!

I got up early this morning (early for a Sunday…) and immediately went for a run (and by “immediately” I mean after getting dressed, brushing my teeth and applying sunscreen). I was only planning on doing about a mile and a half since I’ve been pretty lax about running lately and I haven’t gotten back up to where I was before. A mile and a half seemed to be about right.

Not far into my run though, I was feeling like I’d be able to push it a little further, so I made a bigger loop than usual. I ended up going 2.62 miles (thank you, runstoppable.com) and felt great afterward. Why don’t I do this every morning?

I’ve also been eating right all day – AND LOGGING IT. I’ve said it before and I’ll continue to say it – logging your food & exercise makes all the difference in the world. Besides just keeping track of how I’m doing, it also inspires me to eat better.

I really feel like I can do this: One day at a time. One meal at a time. I can do this.

Shout Out To My Former Self

Saturday, June 13th, 2009

Dear Kimberly-From-Yesterday,

Thank you for taking the time to prepare some sugar-free strawberry banana jello for me! It was particularly thoughtful since you knew you wouldn’t be able to enjoy it yourself. That just proves that you were thinking of me, your Later Self.

You even put in the extra effort add a sliced banana before it set completely! You know how much I like sliced bananas in jello (and in cereal), and I appreciate the work you put into it.

The jello was a delicious and refreshing snack this evening that kept me from indulging in an ice cream novelty, which – even though low-calorie – definitely did not fit within my calorie budget for the day. (Damn you, delicious burger from Piper’s for dinner! – I’m so weak.)

Anyway, I appreciate that you thought about me and took time out of your day to prepare a healthy snack, just for me. You’re the best.

Sincerely,

The Here-And-Now-Kimberly

Reassessment

Saturday, June 13th, 2009

If you’ve been following along, I’m sure you’ve guessed that I haven’t yet broken into the 170s -  you know, since I didn’t post a “woo-hoo!” about it.

It’s true, I haven’t. In fact, I’ve been struggling, going up and down a few pounds the last few weeks.

As you can imagine, I’m pretty frustrated. After I weighed myself yesterday and saw that I was at 183 (eek!), I was pretty upset for a while. Then I took a long, hard look at what I’ve really been doing lately, and how that differs from what I was doing when I was so successful, losing 75 pounds in a year.

There are a lot of differences. For example:

Before – I logged my food EVERY DAY. No matter what. I even took my laptop with me when going out of town so that I could keep up with it. I knew exactly how many calories I ate each day, and how many I burned through my workout. (I recommend www.myfooddiary.com)

Now – I log sometimes. Yes, I can do a lot of it in my head, especially since I eat a lot of the same things each day, but it definitely isn’t as effective. Rounding and estimating simply isn’t as accurate as keeping a complete log, and it’s a lot easier to overindulge when you know you’re not going to have to write it down afterwards – there’s less to be accountable to.

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Before – I worked out EVERY DAY. No matter what. Some days were big workouts, while other days were smaller, but I did something Every. Single. Day. I didn’t even “count” kung fu as my workout, and did an additional workout on those days.

Now – I work out a lot of days, but not all. On top of that, I’ve been counting kung fu as a workout, even though it’s not very aerobic and there tends to be a lot of standing around awaiting your turn during class.

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Since losing weight the healthy way is really about eating right and exercising, these are the two biggies that I need to get back into the habit of doing in order to break this stupid cycle I’m in. I’m so sick of losing the same 3 pounds over and over again.

Who ever said losing weight was easy? It’s not. Simple, yes. Easy, no.

A Delicious Dilemma

Wednesday, June 10th, 2009

At about 4 this afternoon, I required a snack, as is typical of late afternoons. Today, I was in the mood for some fresh fruit.

After heading to the kitchen (have I mentioned that I work from home?), I surveyed my fruit stash and was overwhelmed with the choices. It was a veritable smorgasboard of fruit: Cherries! Bananas! Apples! Watermelon! Peaches! Strawberries!

I had a hard time deciding, but it’s far better to have too many choices than not enough. The same goes for fruit. In fact, go buy some fruit. You. Now. Go. And then eat it.

Editor’s Note: In case you’re curious, I went with the cherries, and it was the correct decision. I really enjoy cherries, even though I think I’m allergic to them. My throat always hurts for a few days after eating them, but it’s worth it.

Two Conclusions

Tuesday, June 9th, 2009

It’s Tuesday. Tuesday has a pretty regular schedule for me: Work, kung fu, dinner with kung fu friends, bed. Tonight, dinner was at a delicious Mexican restaurant, Taco Loco. I had chicken enchiladas and far too many homemade tortilla chips.

On the walk back to my car after dinner, I was struck with the desire to go for a run. Since I’m not struck with this particular desire very often (pie? yes. run? not so much.), and since I was feeling a little guilty about the quantity of food I ate, I decided to run when I got home.

It was a beautiful night: Perfect temperature with a nice breeze. I’ve never actually run at night before, but if you live in a safe, well-lit neighborhood I would recommend it.

There was just one problem: The Mexican food wasn’t sitting well. I actually felt like I wasn’t going to keep my dinner down. I hate that feeling. When I first started running 2 years ago, anytime I ran for more than 5 or 10 minutes I got that feeling. Now, it seems I only get it when I really push myself to go faster and for longer than usual (generally more than three and a half miles will make me feel nauseated). But even with the nausea, I’m glad I went out.

My evening has led me to two conclusions:

1 – I enjoy running at night.

2 – I do not enjoy running after eating Mexican food.

Total Body Workout

Monday, June 8th, 2009

For the first time in years, I took a class at my gym tonight. In fact, it’s only the second class I’ve ever taken at a gym (the first was spinning, and it was not pleasant).

It was a one-hour class called Total Body Workout. I got there a little early and sat with a few other women while the previous class finished up. I was surprised to see how many people joined us as the minutes ticked by. There were probably 40-45 people by the start of class – all women.

Since I’ve never taken this class and was unsure about the equipment needed, I stayed back a little and followed what everyone else did as we settled in. Unfortunately, that meant that by the time I got to the hand weights, it was slim pickins, and I ended up with 8 pound weights. That may not sound like a lot, but it gets heavy fast!

Before the resistance part of class though, was the cardio portion. It was about 30 minutes of very intense aerobics: Lots of jumping, kicking, running in place, squats, etc – without a break. I didn’t have a hard time endurance-wise, but the coordination was tough at times. The instructor switched it up a lot, and it was hard to know what she wanted me to do when at first. I think I caught on pretty well, though. I only felt like an idiot about 15% of the time!

The next section was resistance work – this is where the hand weights came in. There was a lot of bicep curls, hammer curls, tricep extensions, etc. Those 8-pound weights felt like 50 after just a few minutes. I hung in there though, and I felt really good about that considering my weights were heavier than just about everyone else’s. It looked like most people were using 3 or 5 pound weights.

Then there was about 10 minutes of ab work. Abs are always a challenge for me, but I did the best I could, and only missed a few crunches here and there. I’m glad it was only 10 minutes! The ab workout was followed by stretching, which rounded out the hour.

I really enjoyed the class: The workout itself was very intense – I think I sweat the entire 60 minutes – and covered the entire body, which is great. The people in the class were all friendly, and even though I was bigger side than the average size, I didn’t feel completely out of place (though I didn’t enjoy seeing my reflection as I jumped all around that first half hour!). The instructor was great too – kept the class flowing nicely and did a good job of explaining what she wanted us to do when. I even found remixed music agreeable.

I’m going to try to make this a regular Monday night thing! I’ve always found it difficult to get myself to a gym, but I’m good at making it to classes (kung fu, for instance), so this might be an excellent thing for me. I might even be inspired to check out the other classes my gym offers.

I feel really good tonight. Definitely back on that wagon!

Falling Off the Wagon

Sunday, June 7th, 2009

Much of this weekend felt like I was reliving a day from my college/post college years – one of those days that I can now point to and say “Yup, that’s why I was fat to begin with.”

My sister and brother-in-law visited this weekend. We went out to a delicious (and un-nutritious) meal at The Melting Pot, where I ate a lot. And I mean a lot. I also drank a bottle of wine. And I mean a bottle.

After dinner we went out for karaoke. I used to do karaoke at least once a week – for a while it was two or three times a week. Karaoke in and of itself isn’t unhealthy, but the drinking that seems to go along with it certainly is. I didn’t drink too much I suppose – just a few “girlie shots” towards the beginning of the evening since I was the driver – but those girlie shots are loaded with sugar, not to mention that alcohol inhibits fat burning.

If it was just a big dinner and some drinking, that would be one thing, but it gets worse. On the way home from the bar at 2 a.m., we stopped at McDonald’s. I couldn’t help but remember all the times I used to stop for a cheeseburger (or two) and fries after a night of drinking. No WONDER I gained an average of 15 pounds a year… for years!

Don’t get me wrong: I had a great time. In fact, I enjoyed everything about my night out, and I understand that it was a rare indulgence while entertaining guests. But that doesn’t change the fact that I feel guilty about my poor choices, particularly the McDonald’s bit (but boy was it good…).

While this weekend I certainly ate and drank more than I should have, I know that I’ve changed fundamentally: In the past, when I would overindulge and “fall off the diet wagon,” I would continue to overindulge, rationalizing that I’ve already “ruined my diet” or that I would just “start again on Monday.” Now, I know that that’s silly. That continuing to eat fattening food only makes things worse. That you can get back on the wagon any time. That NOW is always the best time to start living healthier.

I can’t undo what’s already done. I can just suck it up and get back on the proverbial wagon.

Don’t worry – I’m back on. The view’s nice up here – join me!

Food Recommendation – Cocoa Roast Almonds

Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009

I recently purchased Cocoa Roast Almonds from Emerald Nuts. They have them in 100 calorie packs, which seemed like a wise decision for me since I have a tendency to misplace my restraint when it comes to large packages of food.

When I opened the box and saw the size of each individual pack, I was rather disappointed. I knew they would be small, but it felt like there were only 5 or 6 almonds in there! What’s the point!? I tucked them away and didn’t think about them again.

Until this afternoon, that is, when I needed a chocolate fix. Three o’clock slump, anyone? I pulled out a pack and made myself a cup of hot tea, hoping the that would help fill me up, since there clearly weren’t going to be enough almonds to do it.

First of all, the almonds are REALLY GOOD. There’s just a dusting of cocoa powder on them – they’re not covered in chocolate – but they have a very distinct dark chocolate flavor. There’s also a hint of salt, and of course, the almond itself.

Secondly, there were far more in the little package than I expected – 18 to be exact (of course I counted…). When you think about it, none of those 100 calorie packs give you much; they’re mostly to satisfy a craving, which these definitely did. I made each almond three bites, too, so they’d last longer. I’m all about prolonging gratification.

Besides being a delicious chocolate-craving killer, almonds have a lot of health benefits: They’re a great source of Vitamin E, have good amounts of magnesium, potassium, zinc, iron, fiber and are a good source of healthy monounsaturated fat, which helps to lower LDL or “bad” cholesterol. They contain more calcium than any other nut which makes them great for vegetarians who do not eat any dairy products. In addition, although almonds are high in fat and calories, eating them in moderation can actually help with weight loss – just remember that word moderation.

Read more about the Health Benefits of Almonds in this article by Fiona Wilkinson!